The best for my body: Thaiboxing

 

 

One of the few sports that actually works good for my body since my injury is thaiboxing. Here I can have more control over my “own” body instead of Bjj, mma etc where I need to go close contact with the bodies. In the thaiboxing it´s not the same bodycontact so it works good for my back.

But. Of course my back is extra sensitive sometimes and get pain anyway. So then it is only to take it easy, to rehab, take walks and rest when needed. Yesterday it was a really sunny and nice weather here in Norway where I am right now.

So Tiago, my fiancé, gaved me some Pt-training outside. That was really nice. Today it´s raining so I will stay home and work. But with chocolate, coffee and nice animals running around outside it is a good day anyway. 😉
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The bad side of being good to handle pain.

Since I was a kid I´ve always liked to climb up at things, jump around, be training, biking and moving the body. It was natural that I fell inlove with differet kind of sports. During my childhood, when I still was young and “without knowledge” about the body I did everything my body handled to do- I was natural flexible and not so scared to try new things. That is really cool and positive!

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But what is the negative part of this? Yes, I didn´t had builded up muscles enough to support my flexibility and to put the body in different more “extreme” acrobatic poses etc. This led to a few injuries, broken feet, thumbs, twisted bodyparts and so on. Not so fun, no. Today I am a lot smarter and know my limits and have a lot of knowledge about how to do and how to NOT do. 😉 But to come back to the subject of this post:

In the beginning of all the injuries I was crying and pain like a pig! Even the smallest, tiniest injury was big for me. But one injury after the other I started to “control” myself and get used by the pains.

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For example: I broken my thumb but I didn´t went to the doctor until two weeks later. Of course I was in a lot of pain but the pain was something “normal” for me and I thought it was just twisted or something. Or when I had an broken foot but walked on it for a month before I realize it was really bad… And even if I go directly to the hospital when a injury happened I am just talking in a normal tone to the doctor: “Yes, this hurts a lot. I know my body and I know this one is broken and I need and X-ray. It hurts, really, really hurts!” This is how an normal conversation can be from me. I don´t cry, I don´t scream and behave like the pain is killing me.

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And how does most of the doctors react? They look at the bodypart that is injured and then send me home with painkillers and “Come back if it´s not better in a week”. Most of the times I comes back and it was broken (or other bad things). They always get chocked about how calm I am even the this extreme pain. And this is good for me that I dont “die” because of the pain, that I can focus on other things.

But the bad side of being good to handle pain like this is that anyone is taking me serious until it is “to late”. And my mum always need to remind me, before I go to the hospital, that:

“Yasmin, remember now to really SHOW them how much pain you have because they wont understand you when you just TELL them how much pain you have.”

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And that is sad but true- and I need to really convince them and SHOW even more how much pain I have because otherwhise they don´t take me as serious as they should. And this is the same in my daily life: when I get sick I don´t fall apart and “die” in the bed- I am trying to keep my mood up, try to smile, talk and eat good. And then people around me think that I am not so sick. And this even if I am TELLING them how sick I am/how bad I feel etc. And this can be so frustrated soooo many times for me! I don´t want anyone to feel sorry for me but at least I want people to take me serious. I am trying to really work with the communication to SPEAK to the other people but if I am not LOOKING like a caos they assume I am good.

It is so hard. I dont want to push myself to look bad if it dosn´t comes naturally. But I want the communication to be taking serious. Can anyone of you refer to this?

 

Bad triggerpoint

ImageMy tennisball, sauna and walking will be my best friends today: I´ve got some bad triggerpoint at my trapezius (I guess if I feel my body good enough). It get worse all the time- can´t sleep (wake up every 5-10 minutes of pain), can´t move, can´t barely breathe without feeling extreme pain and so on…

I should give training to Maria today but as I said, I can´t almost move. But she comes with me to the gym to relax and she will jump into the pool and jacuzzi and I will probably stay in the sauna. And after that we will take the car to her grandma, eat some lunch, drink coffee in this amazingly beautiful day that is today and then go back home so I can work at the computer a bit.

I´ve got great advices about my back of my friends on facebook- thank you all!

 

Free weekend

Resting day from training today and Tiago is not working = relaxed day and going around in pajamas, coffee and cake in the city, fire in he fireplace, sun outside, a happy Happy who loves when both me and Tiago is home. Movie, food and some of the fun part of the work with Visio Fitness that dont feels like work: checking up places to spread Visio Fitness at so we can inspire more people and give training and health around the world! =)

And yesterday-night me and Tiago went to a local typical portugise restaurant, “O Chicote”, and ate a nice dinner with wine and then dessert. So nice..!

Have you did anything fun this weekend? =)

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Dance with the pain

Everyone in this world have feelings that wants to be expressed. Most of the times I think we are trying to hide and ignore them because it is to hard to face it. One of my many ways to express my feelings, sad as happy ones, is by dancing. It makes me feel alive. It makes me face my fears and face my feelings in a way that complete my ordinary days of doing that. Yesterday I had 30 minutes by myself in a big dancing room and wonderful music to dance, move and just do what my body felt to do.

To face all kind of emotions is a tool to create my life to be fantastic! It is no need to feel a shame about it. It is simply beautiful and living. Yesterday was an expression of both a longing, sadness, lonelyness from old memories, but mostly freedom to just be.

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MMA-gala: The Zone fc Survival

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Me and Tiago went to The Zone FC (mma-gala) yesterday here in gothenburg. Some friends in our club Gladius MMA (and other clubs as well) were fighting. They did great performances and different results, most of them won. We liked the show even if Eddy get a bad knockout in the last match. :-/

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It is always nice to go there becuase you meet so many people that you know, at the same time. First we didn´t had any tickets to The zone but the last week we got two for a good price. But becuase of the 3-4 hours of sitting down at the show yesterday, my back hurt a lot today. So the Visio Powerwalk I should have with my clients today needed to be cancelled. It´s better now but I still can´t bend down so much without a pain like a knife in the spine…

This weekend I also did some easy and nice pads-work that Tiago hold for me. And some slow submission wrestling at the end. That felt good. Now I will go and eat some digestives and drink sugarfree blueberry-soup!

A trick went wrong year 2006 – I went back to the hospital today.

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Today I went to the doctor who send me to an ortoped for my back injury. I had less sensory on all my left leg. The year 2006 did I do a small and easy acrobatic tricks with a friend. He should simply do a flip over me but of some reason it end bad. He did the flip and accidently fell over my back! Hard!

I went to hospital for 4 days with maxiumum dosage of morfine. I didn´t get any skeletal injury but it was bad enough to not be able to be training for more than a year (and was in the bed almost the whole summer) and needed to do rehab all days every week in at least half year. The doctor told me it would get 100% good again. It didn´t. I needed to put my “acrobatic-career” on ice, I had to (and still need) do a lot of rehab and strength all the time. And a lot of times I can´t do all the movements in the trainings and not even in my normal day-movements. I wake up in the nights of pain and sometimes I can´t sit on a chair at all.

Naprapaths, chiropractors, medicine, rehabilitation, resting, acupuncture, food, yes you name it! I´ve did it all! I stopped with the MMA becuase of all the combination of movements from stand up to grappling and floor made my back dont feel so good. Now I only do the trainings and movements that my back feel good with. But it hurts to have it like this, both bodily and mentally. The doctor today said that I had good muscles and have been training and rehab correctly. He could see it on my back. So now I am waiting for a new and looong procedure to try to fix this in somehow…