The bad side of being good to handle pain.

Since I was a kid I´ve always liked to climb up at things, jump around, be training, biking and moving the body. It was natural that I fell inlove with differet kind of sports. During my childhood, when I still was young and “without knowledge” about the body I did everything my body handled to do- I was natural flexible and not so scared to try new things. That is really cool and positive!

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But what is the negative part of this? Yes, I didn´t had builded up muscles enough to support my flexibility and to put the body in different more “extreme” acrobatic poses etc. This led to a few injuries, broken feet, thumbs, twisted bodyparts and so on. Not so fun, no. Today I am a lot smarter and know my limits and have a lot of knowledge about how to do and how to NOT do. 😉 But to come back to the subject of this post:

In the beginning of all the injuries I was crying and pain like a pig! Even the smallest, tiniest injury was big for me. But one injury after the other I started to “control” myself and get used by the pains.

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For example: I broken my thumb but I didn´t went to the doctor until two weeks later. Of course I was in a lot of pain but the pain was something “normal” for me and I thought it was just twisted or something. Or when I had an broken foot but walked on it for a month before I realize it was really bad… And even if I go directly to the hospital when a injury happened I am just talking in a normal tone to the doctor: “Yes, this hurts a lot. I know my body and I know this one is broken and I need and X-ray. It hurts, really, really hurts!” This is how an normal conversation can be from me. I don´t cry, I don´t scream and behave like the pain is killing me.

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And how does most of the doctors react? They look at the bodypart that is injured and then send me home with painkillers and “Come back if it´s not better in a week”. Most of the times I comes back and it was broken (or other bad things). They always get chocked about how calm I am even the this extreme pain. And this is good for me that I dont “die” because of the pain, that I can focus on other things.

But the bad side of being good to handle pain like this is that anyone is taking me serious until it is “to late”. And my mum always need to remind me, before I go to the hospital, that:

“Yasmin, remember now to really SHOW them how much pain you have because they wont understand you when you just TELL them how much pain you have.”

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And that is sad but true- and I need to really convince them and SHOW even more how much pain I have because otherwhise they don´t take me as serious as they should. And this is the same in my daily life: when I get sick I don´t fall apart and “die” in the bed- I am trying to keep my mood up, try to smile, talk and eat good. And then people around me think that I am not so sick. And this even if I am TELLING them how sick I am/how bad I feel etc. And this can be so frustrated soooo many times for me! I don´t want anyone to feel sorry for me but at least I want people to take me serious. I am trying to really work with the communication to SPEAK to the other people but if I am not LOOKING like a caos they assume I am good.

It is so hard. I dont want to push myself to look bad if it dosn´t comes naturally. But I want the communication to be taking serious. Can anyone of you refer to this?

 

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A productive day with inspiration and pepp!

Yesterday I had a really great productive day with Visio Fitness. I got a lot done and a lot of good mails responding to me. I have new ideas for the company- some is to keep on working on unofficial until it is done and the right time to share it with you. And some ideas is on their way to be official. Soon. New partners, new projects and new things but all with the same drivingforce and purpose: To inspire people to get more health, training and motivation in their lifes so they can become the best of themself in all ways!

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Bad triggerpoint

ImageMy tennisball, sauna and walking will be my best friends today: I´ve got some bad triggerpoint at my trapezius (I guess if I feel my body good enough). It get worse all the time- can´t sleep (wake up every 5-10 minutes of pain), can´t move, can´t barely breathe without feeling extreme pain and so on…

I should give training to Maria today but as I said, I can´t almost move. But she comes with me to the gym to relax and she will jump into the pool and jacuzzi and I will probably stay in the sauna. And after that we will take the car to her grandma, eat some lunch, drink coffee in this amazingly beautiful day that is today and then go back home so I can work at the computer a bit.

I´ve got great advices about my back of my friends on facebook- thank you all!

 

Dance with the pain

Everyone in this world have feelings that wants to be expressed. Most of the times I think we are trying to hide and ignore them because it is to hard to face it. One of my many ways to express my feelings, sad as happy ones, is by dancing. It makes me feel alive. It makes me face my fears and face my feelings in a way that complete my ordinary days of doing that. Yesterday I had 30 minutes by myself in a big dancing room and wonderful music to dance, move and just do what my body felt to do.

To face all kind of emotions is a tool to create my life to be fantastic! It is no need to feel a shame about it. It is simply beautiful and living. Yesterday was an expression of both a longing, sadness, lonelyness from old memories, but mostly freedom to just be.

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Legs & deadlifts

Legs and deadlifts on the scheduele today. First some warmup and the treadmill following by machines for my legs 3×10 or 3×15 depend on what exercise. After this it was time for deadlifts. Actually, it is my first time that I am doing deathlifts. And becuase my back is not so strong yet and it´s the first time I do the exercise, I did it with very light weigths and slow so I could focus 100% on the techniques and breething. Tiago helped me of course. Thank you baby! 😉

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The first PT-session with my mother in law

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Today was the first PT-hour that Maria, my mother in law, had with me. Last time we met was to do tests, measures etc. But today it was time for the training I put up for her! And she did sooo great!! I am so proud over her! She impressed me a lot and I am looking forward for the next training with her that will be on friday- and then I will give here training in the pool! =)

We worked mostly with the bodyweigth, some dumbbells and medicine ball and focused on the upper body to move it, think about techniques, find balance & stability in the body, and get going the bloodcirculation and feel good! And she did! She had more energy afterwards, didn´t feel any pain in her “injuries” and she felt good. Great!

Good work today Maria!

 

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Chest with a shoulder-injury

Most of the times I do my “own” exercises in the gym but sometimes, like today, I´m actually is training with the machines. Chest was the main focus on this day.

But becuase of a small accident happened on my right shoulder a few years ago my muscles and my collarbone and shoulder is not in the correct place. It is not “bad enough” for any surgery but it is for sure bad enough for my back, neck etc: All the musclesystem needs to compensate in a different way wich leads to that some movements is not possible for me to do without pain and a big sound of “klonk!” in the bone! At least this one below was one of the “good” ones that worked out for me! Great!

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Below: Some snacks- fruits, cheese and dark chocolate, to me and my love Tiago in front of a good movie and fire. ❤ImageImage