The bad side of being good to handle pain.

Since I was a kid I´ve always liked to climb up at things, jump around, be training, biking and moving the body. It was natural that I fell inlove with differet kind of sports. During my childhood, when I still was young and “without knowledge” about the body I did everything my body handled to do- I was natural flexible and not so scared to try new things. That is really cool and positive!

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But what is the negative part of this? Yes, I didn´t had builded up muscles enough to support my flexibility and to put the body in different more “extreme” acrobatic poses etc. This led to a few injuries, broken feet, thumbs, twisted bodyparts and so on. Not so fun, no. Today I am a lot smarter and know my limits and have a lot of knowledge about how to do and how to NOT do. 😉 But to come back to the subject of this post:

In the beginning of all the injuries I was crying and pain like a pig! Even the smallest, tiniest injury was big for me. But one injury after the other I started to “control” myself and get used by the pains.

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For example: I broken my thumb but I didn´t went to the doctor until two weeks later. Of course I was in a lot of pain but the pain was something “normal” for me and I thought it was just twisted or something. Or when I had an broken foot but walked on it for a month before I realize it was really bad… And even if I go directly to the hospital when a injury happened I am just talking in a normal tone to the doctor: “Yes, this hurts a lot. I know my body and I know this one is broken and I need and X-ray. It hurts, really, really hurts!” This is how an normal conversation can be from me. I don´t cry, I don´t scream and behave like the pain is killing me.

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And how does most of the doctors react? They look at the bodypart that is injured and then send me home with painkillers and “Come back if it´s not better in a week”. Most of the times I comes back and it was broken (or other bad things). They always get chocked about how calm I am even the this extreme pain. And this is good for me that I dont “die” because of the pain, that I can focus on other things.

But the bad side of being good to handle pain like this is that anyone is taking me serious until it is “to late”. And my mum always need to remind me, before I go to the hospital, that:

“Yasmin, remember now to really SHOW them how much pain you have because they wont understand you when you just TELL them how much pain you have.”

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And that is sad but true- and I need to really convince them and SHOW even more how much pain I have because otherwhise they don´t take me as serious as they should. And this is the same in my daily life: when I get sick I don´t fall apart and “die” in the bed- I am trying to keep my mood up, try to smile, talk and eat good. And then people around me think that I am not so sick. And this even if I am TELLING them how sick I am/how bad I feel etc. And this can be so frustrated soooo many times for me! I don´t want anyone to feel sorry for me but at least I want people to take me serious. I am trying to really work with the communication to SPEAK to the other people but if I am not LOOKING like a caos they assume I am good.

It is so hard. I dont want to push myself to look bad if it dosn´t comes naturally. But I want the communication to be taking serious. Can anyone of you refer to this?

 

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Ufc, church & kanelbulle ;)

UFC in Stockholm at the Globe Arena. A night that both the ufc and to be inside the globe was the first time for both me and Tiago. REALLY nice! And to get tickets for totally only 800SEK instead of 4400SEK and in the front parkett wasn’t so bad eigther. 😉 hehe. The fights was good. Most of our swedish fighters won. Great! And one fighter I really liked to see in the groundgame was Diego Brandao- he did every movement with such an amazing quality and calmness. It was beautiful! BJJ is a amazing sport..!

The day after (yesterday) we went to the service at my church- Södermalmskyrkan- in Stockholm. Really nice to see it and be there again. And rest of the day we spent home at my former dance classmate Linneas apartment. Food, coffee and swedish “kanelbulle”. Beautiful weekend!

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A productive day with inspiration and pepp!

Yesterday I had a really great productive day with Visio Fitness. I got a lot done and a lot of good mails responding to me. I have new ideas for the company- some is to keep on working on unofficial until it is done and the right time to share it with you. And some ideas is on their way to be official. Soon. New partners, new projects and new things but all with the same drivingforce and purpose: To inspire people to get more health, training and motivation in their lifes so they can become the best of themself in all ways!

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Dance with the pain

Everyone in this world have feelings that wants to be expressed. Most of the times I think we are trying to hide and ignore them because it is to hard to face it. One of my many ways to express my feelings, sad as happy ones, is by dancing. It makes me feel alive. It makes me face my fears and face my feelings in a way that complete my ordinary days of doing that. Yesterday I had 30 minutes by myself in a big dancing room and wonderful music to dance, move and just do what my body felt to do.

To face all kind of emotions is a tool to create my life to be fantastic! It is no need to feel a shame about it. It is simply beautiful and living. Yesterday was an expression of both a longing, sadness, lonelyness from old memories, but mostly freedom to just be.

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Stretching-day

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My back if a bit sour today so I took it easy at todays training: only warm-up with the row-machine and stretching. Or, I did some training for my calfs and abdominis as well but only light training more for the bloodcirculation.

I´ve had some tough days the latest. Sleep and dream bad, short patience, dont eat so good etc… Not so fantastic no. But it is just to keep on going forward and do the best I can in all situations. The good thing with some “bad” days is that I at least is learning from it even if it is frustrated to feel “bad”. 😉

Time to plan the music for the tomorrows dance class!

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I make Portugal dance!

Second dance class I gived here in Portugal today. I was a bit nervous if the people liked it the last time or not. “Will it come any people at all this class? Maybe they didn´t like it last time..?” went my toughts before the class today. But two minutes before it started people dropped in and soon there was more people than last class!

So the class went great and people laught, had fun and danced. They was happy and so was I. Mission completed. For this time at least. ;-P

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Above: Tiago is training in the row and me is on my way to the class.

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Here you have a few of the people who was in the class today- rest of the people was already away to go to next class. (I am always 2-3 minutes late to end my class so they need to hurry up to next one. Haha, sorry!). ;-P

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Here you have me after the class in the room I am make the people dance like crazy. Hehe.

It´s already 12 years of coaching!

When I was 14 years old I started to instruct training-classes for the fist time for “real”- both in clubs and in a school. That was twelve years ago. Since then I´ve gived sooooo many grouptrainings, pt-sessions, workshops etc. in capoeira, acrobatic, dance, theatre, mixed fitness training, danceimprovisation, bjj, physical training and a lot more! And today I have my own fitness-company (Visio Fitness) both in Sweden and in Portugal!

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Above: A photo with some amazing girls for my companys website www.visiofitness.se.

Photo: Andreas Bruzelius

I love it. It´s nothing that can make me so happy than to see other people be happy, healthy, move their body and appreciate themselfs and at the same time they get INSPIRED to achieve their dreams and goals! Wow, I really, really love to see people succeed..! It´s amazing… ❤

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Photo: After one PT-training with me this girls from Team Power Women seems to be happy, yes? They are preparing themselfs for the hard Tough Mudder 2013!

Today it will be the second time I give Dance Improvisation here in Portugal. I speak both english and portugise in the class. That´s fun and a bit strange but it works and they laugh (and so do I). Hahaha! =D

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Photo: I give a PT group-session in Mixed Fitness Training.