The bad side of being good to handle pain.

Since I was a kid I´ve always liked to climb up at things, jump around, be training, biking and moving the body. It was natural that I fell inlove with differet kind of sports. During my childhood, when I still was young and “without knowledge” about the body I did everything my body handled to do- I was natural flexible and not so scared to try new things. That is really cool and positive!

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But what is the negative part of this? Yes, I didn´t had builded up muscles enough to support my flexibility and to put the body in different more “extreme” acrobatic poses etc. This led to a few injuries, broken feet, thumbs, twisted bodyparts and so on. Not so fun, no. Today I am a lot smarter and know my limits and have a lot of knowledge about how to do and how to NOT do. 😉 But to come back to the subject of this post:

In the beginning of all the injuries I was crying and pain like a pig! Even the smallest, tiniest injury was big for me. But one injury after the other I started to “control” myself and get used by the pains.

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For example: I broken my thumb but I didn´t went to the doctor until two weeks later. Of course I was in a lot of pain but the pain was something “normal” for me and I thought it was just twisted or something. Or when I had an broken foot but walked on it for a month before I realize it was really bad… And even if I go directly to the hospital when a injury happened I am just talking in a normal tone to the doctor: “Yes, this hurts a lot. I know my body and I know this one is broken and I need and X-ray. It hurts, really, really hurts!” This is how an normal conversation can be from me. I don´t cry, I don´t scream and behave like the pain is killing me.

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And how does most of the doctors react? They look at the bodypart that is injured and then send me home with painkillers and “Come back if it´s not better in a week”. Most of the times I comes back and it was broken (or other bad things). They always get chocked about how calm I am even the this extreme pain. And this is good for me that I dont “die” because of the pain, that I can focus on other things.

But the bad side of being good to handle pain like this is that anyone is taking me serious until it is “to late”. And my mum always need to remind me, before I go to the hospital, that:

“Yasmin, remember now to really SHOW them how much pain you have because they wont understand you when you just TELL them how much pain you have.”

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And that is sad but true- and I need to really convince them and SHOW even more how much pain I have because otherwhise they don´t take me as serious as they should. And this is the same in my daily life: when I get sick I don´t fall apart and “die” in the bed- I am trying to keep my mood up, try to smile, talk and eat good. And then people around me think that I am not so sick. And this even if I am TELLING them how sick I am/how bad I feel etc. And this can be so frustrated soooo many times for me! I don´t want anyone to feel sorry for me but at least I want people to take me serious. I am trying to really work with the communication to SPEAK to the other people but if I am not LOOKING like a caos they assume I am good.

It is so hard. I dont want to push myself to look bad if it dosn´t comes naturally. But I want the communication to be taking serious. Can anyone of you refer to this?

 

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Workout at a outside-gym in Sweden

Today me and Tiago went to try a outside-gym here in Stockholm at Björkhagen. “Street/monkey” training, “normal” gym-exercises and stretching was combined with a beautiful weather and snow in the Swedish woods and nature around us. It was fun! 😀

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Monkey/street-training

Today it´s a windy but warm day. I´m waiting for Tiago to come home so we can eat and then go to the gym. I love the gym here in Santarém but the only thing I am actually missing is someplace where I can climb up and do my “monkey/street-training”. Hehe.

Since I was a kid I´ve always climbed up in trees and places wherever I could try to get up in. And to hang there, be upside down, go around, lift up, jump etc – that was my best playground and it still is! = But because of the gym dosn´t have that here I think it is good because of my backinjury is not 100% yet so I think it is good it´s not there to tempts me. =P

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Thumbs up for confidence up & fast respond of the body!

Yesterdays total training:

  • 2500m row
  • 100 push ups
  • 100 burpees
  • 100 squats
  • 10 minutes (just to try) a new cardiomachine I´ve never used before and dont know the name of.

More I didn´t do. I need to training smart with the asthma. But I got my confidence up compare to two days ago. And my body seems to respond fast on the trainings.since my 1 ½ month without training.

Only less then one week ago I only did 2x500m row, 55 push ups, 60 squats, 60 burpees and 40 jumps to a box á ½ meter. And after this I couldn´t breethe, I almost vomit, and had taste blood in my throat + pain in my lungs everytime I was breething. It was under control but still scary. And the session I did yesterday (as written in the beginning of this post) I did more, longer AND handle it a LOT better!Image

Photo: The ribs or muscles? Muscles on the ribs! 😉

So after only 3 more trainingssession I must say my body is doing good. =) Thumbs up for that! Today is resting and tomorrow is the Crossfit-competition. I hope my asthma don´t disapoint me because all exercises will effect the cardio (= problems with my asthma). But as I said before- my primare goal is only to be able to COMPLETE it. =)

Competing in crossfit at saturday?

On saturday there is a small competition here in our city in Portugal. It is kind of crossfit but they call it Scape-fit instead because it is only a comeptition for everyone who is members in the gym here, named Scape.

I have only been training two times the last 5 weeks of different reasons. I tried yesterday to go trough the exercises we are gonna do and even i it is really a small and “easy” competition it is hard for me with my asthma (and the asthma get reeeally bad when I push to much!!). I almost couldn´t breethe yesterday. AND I forgot my asthma-medicine so it was extra hard for me… but today I will relax and tomorrow I will do one more training and at thursday as well. So then I will at least have 4 trainingsessions before the competition in the last 6 weeks.. Haha! =P But my goal is to just complete it on saturday. Without fall apart without breething! 😉 So health and body before number one at the pricepall.

But of course- I have a competition-mind so if I would get number one- of course I would prefere and appreciate that! So we will see how it goes… I will keep you updated!

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Bad triggerpoint

ImageMy tennisball, sauna and walking will be my best friends today: I´ve got some bad triggerpoint at my trapezius (I guess if I feel my body good enough). It get worse all the time- can´t sleep (wake up every 5-10 minutes of pain), can´t move, can´t barely breathe without feeling extreme pain and so on…

I should give training to Maria today but as I said, I can´t almost move. But she comes with me to the gym to relax and she will jump into the pool and jacuzzi and I will probably stay in the sauna. And after that we will take the car to her grandma, eat some lunch, drink coffee in this amazingly beautiful day that is today and then go back home so I can work at the computer a bit.

I´ve got great advices about my back of my friends on facebook- thank you all!

 

Crossfit or not?

A few years ago I saw crossfit and since then I´ve always wanted to try but I never did. Of seweral reasons. But the more I see it and hear about it my “reasons-of-not-to-go” starts to get further back in my head and my interest for it starts to get “first in line”…

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So now, here I am, looking everywhere for crossfit-inspiration on internet, youtube, websites, photos and my own thougths that I think that my body actually could be really good at it at the same time I think that would motivate me to train more in a way that my body needs. As long as I really listen to it, do it with 100% techniques and so on, it will be great! Only thing is if my d*mn asthma will be a problem for me…?

One of the Crossfit-clubs in Sweden (gothenburg) that is one of the places where I get my inspiration from, is Crossfit Göta. And the guys who has it, specially Marcus, has inspired me more than he think since we worked at the same gym- Fysiken. There he workes as a Personal Trainer (and he is awesome!) and with crossfit etc. Hopefully I will get to go there for a class with them now when I will be in Sweden in february for a few days. =)

Photo: Me is easy trying some exercises with light weights to see how it felt.